I mean, I’m wanting to, or at least thinking I’m wanting to. But then when I sit down and say, “what should I do for God?”, I draw blanks. Like, what should I be doing right this moment? I know according to His Word we should be spreading the Gospel, living a Godly life, repenting for the wrongs we do, doing our best to live peaceably with all men, praying, reading the Word/ meditating on those things we’ve learned, taking action on the things we have learned. In this alone there is so much that I could be doing that I shouldn’t sit around wondering, what I should be doing. I guess sometimes I just feel like I don’t know exactly which one of these I should be doing. As of late, I’ve been using this as an indicator that it’s time to pray. By praying, I usually get inspired and get direction. From there I know a little better what I should be doing. Part of my issue too is that I’m really logistical and perhaps a bit anxious and an over-thinker as well. So an allotted time period such as now (its currently 2:56pm and I have Church at 6pm) makes me a bit all over the place in my thoughts and translates in my action. I just want to do exactly what’s right at the exact time. Sometimes, it’s not about that. Sometimes it’s about living in the present, being selfless, and trusting in God’s plan. In doing that, we can better understand God’s purpose. Sometimes all of our busy-ness, is just that, busy-ness. It’s distracting us from what’s right in front of us.
